shelley

got some sad news this morning. my spiritual teacher/counseler shelley, who i saw from january '03 until she moved to california last fall, passed away last night. she was only in her early 50s, but she had cancer and i guess she really went downhill after she moved to california to live with her daughter.

shelley was an amazing soul. she overcame a lot. she was sexually abused as a child and then her ex-husband was an alcoholic. she was also dyslexic, yet after she finally left her bad marriage at around age 40, she taught herself universal law, reading tons of books, and became a counseler.

i think about stuff she said to me all the time. even weirder, as i was having coffee this morning, i thought about her and thought that i should call her this weekend to see how see how she was doing. then i got the sad news from a mutual friend about an hour later.

when i've been really mixed up, she's the one i call. she always said, "there's two ways to look at things...from an earthly perspective, or from a spiritual perspective." 99% of people only see things from an earthly perspective. she taught me to do otherwise.

when my mom died last year, she was there for me like crazy, very much in a motherly way. all throughout that awful week, i kept calling her from new hampshire, at times when i didn't think i could get through what i was going through. i was lucky...so lucky...to have her during that. and then when zoe cheated on me and left me a month later, she helped me get through that. that was the worst month of my life (my cat even died too). shelley was amazing in how she saw everything.

i know i'll never have another teacher like her. she always had so much belief in my potential. i hope for the rest of my life i can live up to what she saw in me. hopefully she'll be able to see it, from wherever she is now.

i'll do my best. i'll miss you, shelley...