fools deed

so, j and i are chatting today online, and try as i might to accept her, it's very challenging. she has apparently found a buyer for her awful 1978 dodge van, and get this: her dad told her he'd match whatever she gets for it. so if she sells it for $2000, he'll just GIVE her another $2000 as well. must be nice to have a dad do shit like that for you when you're in your 30s.

and then she's talking about moving, and this and that, and then says no matter what she does, she'll buy something else (using the money that she'll get from selling her house that her DAD helped her buy). and then she goes, "i'll never rent. renting is a fools deed." thanks. way to make me feel like shit.

why would anyone purposefully say that to someone who rents?

i almost responded, then decided not to. for the next 10 minutes, neither one of us entered any text, until she was like, "well, i have to shower. talk to you later!". i didn't say anything. for all she knew i had gotten busy at work, but my ego would like to think that she may be wondering if in fact her comment pissed me off. she's a smart girl. she knew she was taking a shot at me, for no good reason, i might add...

her big future plans are to go the bahamas and then go to philly. again, must be nice having a dad give you money so you don't have to work and you can just travel.

i kinda wonder though, if deep down she's that happy. i like having a cool job, working with cool people i like and get along with. i'd be bored outta my mind living in the boondocks in gaineville with nothing to do every single day. we were chatting around 4:30 p.m., and she mentioned she was drinking a vodka cranberry. must be nice, i guess...

what sucks is we chatted yesterday and it went great, and i said i'd probably go to g'ville on the 23rd for one night. it's her birthday. i'll probably still do it, but i need to keep reminding myself she's just a test. everytime she says something that pisses me off i need to breathe deep and see her for what she is...