addictive

i recovered from my tired, pissy state of last night to have a good day today. we had an audition at a nearby golf course here in orlando. we all met at the course at 7:15 a.m...this after i got to bed at around 2:30 or whatever time it was i made my pissed-off post last night. i got about 3 hours sleep, but i was fine today.

i actually ended up doing something i hadn't done in probably 5 or 6 years: i hit golf balls! we had a brief lull around 1 p.m., and i hit balls for the first time since the LAST time i hit balls years ago with antiparticle. and it was just like the last time: fun and addictive. i hit some irons, most of my shots were poor, but i got an impromptu lesson and started hitting a few high and straight. man that feels good!

j provided the lesson. she's a sweet girl. she's young, like 23, a p.a. in another department who offered to help out today. she always dresses very fashionable and stylish. she's got cool taste in clothing...a very european look to a lot of her choices, and all the high heels she tends to wear don't hurt either.

and j is quite the good golfer. she hits all her shots high and straight, with an awesome looking swing. she and i have become friends at work over the past six months. we share the common bond of both suffering from cystic acne. which sucks, but at least i have someone i can talk to who really gets it, and knows what it's like. her face, for what it's worth, has cleared up tremendously over the past six months. she looks wonderful now.

it was probably what i needed, cause when i woke up today i wasn't feeling too good about the female gender. and i love girls. i really do. too much, actually. i just don't handle rejection very well at all. i'm too sensitive, and my last relationship has appeared to make me very untrustworthy of girls. it sucks, but i'm working on it...